Gone of an opportunity

Few days ago, I purposely went back to Ipoh for an inteview.
Interview for my 4-month internship placement.
Well, in just few hours ago, I had rejected this post.

Regret? Nahhh...to be frankly, feeling a little bit regret.
Hopefully it's just because of the impact of those medicine.
Thinking that I might have missed an opportunity, I really feel bad.
It's gonna be hard to take in, although I was the one who took the initiative to reject the job.

Gosh!!I'm really sick now, thinking of my internship placement.

Fuxk! 凸=__=凸

Where the hell can I go now?