Miserable

Life is so miserable for me...
Everything seems unclear.
Exams, assignments, club activities and so on...
Today, i suppose to go out for an interview session with a company in Jitra.
However, due to some factors, the journey has been cancelled.
Lots of books to be studied.
Lots of paperwork is waiting for me to be settled.
Lots of non-academic work is on.
Tired...
Mentally, so as phsycally.
More effort is being put inside, my health is going to be jeorpadised.

sURreNDeR

What am i suppose to do to make myself happier?

I just finished with my 1st mid-semester test~Entrepreneurial Skills and Behavior

I know that i have ruined this paper.

I know.

I didn't know that my life can be so miserable now.

What will happen to me in future?

I really don't want to think about it.

Yet, it is chasing behind me.

I have lost all my energy...

I have lost all my power...

I am going to surrender.

Surrender for my life...

Surrender for my future...

I still don't know what's wrong with me

It is still in Chinese New Year, but everybody has already been preparing for this coming mid-semester exam. Everyone in UUM is busy studying for the mid-semester exam.

Those who have exam in this week are damn busy with their revision. How about those whose exams are in the following week? Well, rather the same. If they are not doing their revision, they must be rushing for the assignments and also presentations, for sure. However, I must admit that I am the odd one among them. I am going back to Ipoh tomorrow regardless of the compiling stack of coursework. For me, the passion for celebrating ‘Bai Tian Gong’ has overtaken the motivation to do my coursework. Rather sad for my lecturers, right?

Since the day I got into UUM, I have never thought of skipping any of my lectures. Yet, I am going to skip my SDG class for the sake of my enjoyment. Terrible, really terrible!!

Many friends have been asking me, “Y r u going back?”

Well, I keep answering them the same answer. “I wanna celebrate Valentine’s!”

That’s it!! I don’t want to explain more.

“What’s the point of going back tomorrow and coming back on the next day?” a friend asked me. Yes, what is the point of going back for just 1 day?

Good and challenging question! I don’t have any idea of what I am going to do tomorrow. So blur… How come I have such a thought of going back for just a short moment? Well, the answer is ‘UNKNOWN’. Even me myself don’t know the answer of this question.

GB=Going Back

Today is the 3rd day of Chinese New Year.
I will be back to UUM tomorrow.
Don't feel like want to go back.
Plus, my dad is at home.
I wish to spend more time with my family, especially with my dad.
It is very hard to see him since he is working far far away from our hometown.
Really will be missing my dad a lot......

GONG XI FAT CAI~yEaR oF THE rAT

Happy Chinese New Year!!
Halo, fellow friends.
Around 3 hours later, it will be a totally new year (according to the Chinese Calendar).
Year of the Rat!
Cool!
I am enjoying every moment from now on, waiting patiently to wish everyone a happy new year.
So so so...excited right now, and i don't know what to do now.
Really become crazy already. Crazy for Chinese New Year!!!
Gong Xi Fat Cai!!!!!

Happy CNY? Sad CNY? Busy CNY?

I think i am going to be crazy during this Chinese New Year.
No mood, no time, no money, no guts....to do something i wish to do but i can't do.
I can't enjoy my Chinese New Year.
Lots of assignment to do!
Lots of book to be read!
Lots of things to be done!!!
My life seems doesn't belong to me anymore.
I have lost the control power.
I have lost myself.
True, i lost the part inside of me, my soul...
Physically, i am considered alright.
Mentally, i am totally lost.
There is so much to be done. Yet, i don't know what should i do.
My 2008 new year wish is to find myself.
But look, what happen to me???
I can feel my changes, i can't find myself!
What's going on???
Changes might be good for me, yet i don't know whether should i be happy with all these changes.