Gone of an opportunity

Few days ago, I purposely went back to Ipoh for an inteview.
Interview for my 4-month internship placement.
Well, in just few hours ago, I had rejected this post.

Regret? Nahhh...to be frankly, feeling a little bit regret.
Hopefully it's just because of the impact of those medicine.
Thinking that I might have missed an opportunity, I really feel bad.
It's gonna be hard to take in, although I was the one who took the initiative to reject the job.

Gosh!!I'm really sick now, thinking of my internship placement.

Fuxk! 凸=__=凸

Where the hell can I go now?

Index Finger vs Ring Finger

Recently, my life was totally miserable and depraved!
I was bored even if i was watching The L Word and surfing the Internet for the whole day.
Anyway, this is all about The L Word.

I wonder since when i have come across this series.
Hmm......Yes, i came across with it from a post by Xi Nic regarding one matter being brought out in the First Season of The L Word.
It was concerning the saying of the tendency of someone turning into a gay or lesbian can be seen through by comparing the length of both index finger and ring finger.
Would a person with longer ring finger than index finger prone to be a gay? Well...that seems crazy for me. >_<
However, this had certainly grabbed my attention! That's why I had been trying to get this series.
Well, luckily to have a friend of mine, she was able to get me the DVDs...Now, I enjoy watching this series.

Now that I've finished watching the First Season of The L Word, I am looking forward to finish the second.^^ *Excitedly*
Skipping class, staying at home, enjoying the show!
By the way, how on earth could they grab Dana away from me?!!!!!! T__T
Well, I love Dana more than Shane! <---- Specially to Xi Nic

D' FirST EPiSodE oF The L Word

The L Word - I am totally spending my precious time for you!

A few hours after I got the DVDs, I had been sacrificing all the energy and time for it.

Had a "Not Bad" thought for the first episode of the series...though i might had felt a little bit of astonishment.

Never ever seen gay-sex, practically.

Well, i mean......i might have read some gay-stories and tried to......imagine wtf. >.<

Don't misunderstand me! Curiosity exists in everybody. 

What kind of person would potentially to be considered as a lecher or pervert?

Only God knows the answer.

How on earth can a series to have so much of porno scenes in just an episode? Wtf...

Really had great impact on my mind after seeing such striking scenes......*HELP*

I am gonna have a hard sleep tonight. *CRY-ing*

Piss off you, problems!!!

No more complaining.
It's time to eliminate the depravation.
I am going to strike a blow for First Class!
It will be challenging...but I am going to try my very best.

Recently, I am annoyed with the internship matter.
The level of Cortisol has been increasing, drastically! (Cortisol...please Google)
Realizing that I was so easy to be provoked, I was trying to avoid problems.
However, PROBLEMS COME TO ME!
Argghhhh...Damn it!
Gonna start to find ways to improve my emotional intelligence...

*Piss off you, problems!!!*

Mastering the languages isn't easy

How long have this blog been abandoned? All these while i was blogging in Chinese. Frankly, i wish to write more in English. Nevertheless, it has always come to nothing. What is the reason contributing to this? Who can tell? Even i too, do not understand the reason not blogging in English.

I saw one of my Internet friend's blog (which is in Chinese blog) saying that he has made some kind of funny misunderstanding while chatting with his girlfriend through the MSN. It is true that languages has to be practised continuously. There is no exception for any language. Practice makes perfect, that is what my English tuition teacher, Aunt Josephine has been telling me. Languages is unlike other subjects which can be learned in just a short period. In fact, languages might be a life-long subject for us. One can actually learn to use certain language but the hard thing is to maintain it, not to mention in mastering it. I'm afraid i am currently facing the same thing too.

I know a few languages. Yet, there is lacking of chances for me to use them. Is that contributing to my poorer and poorer mastering of languages? I know how to write in Chinese, English, Malay and a little bit in Japanese. Plus, i can speak Mandarin, Cantonese, English, Malay, Japanese, in which some of the languages might mot be fluent enough to be considered as i am expert in that. Besides that, i can also speak a little of Hakka and Hokkien. Thanks to my mom and my friends for teaching me the languages! Hmm..i think i should think ways to improve my mastering of those languages..

Heading to......

Time doesn't wait for anyone.
The world is fair to each of us, the residents who live in the Earth.
Without realizing, my university life has almost come to an end. [Well, actually i still have one more year to go. XD] Hahh, just forget about it! LOL...
Frankly, i start to feel the tension of my future life. To be more accurate, the working life.
What i have learned so far throughout the university life is suppose to be the precious and useful asset for me, but the point is, what have i learned?
Hey, wait a minute! I didn't say that nothing i have learned in these three years, ok?
Just that what i have learned is more than i can say. May be to a certain extent, it is more than i can realize.
In short, i learned to become a good person. [That's what i think, others may not agree with me though.]
In fact, i am still learning, to be a better person.
Well, guys. Wish me luck, ok? Thanks^^

Work Hard & Smart

Time doesn't wait for anyone. This is the unchangeable rule of life for each and everyone in this world. Nobody can be excluded from growing older and older. I have learned this from my mother. I am growing older, so do my mother. Too bad, she is weaker. The world is round. Things are changing every moment. Human's life is showing the best example on the uncontrollable changing rule.

A baby is born. Then, it will turn to be a child. He receives love and care from his parents. He will grow to be a teenager. He then fall in love, and will get married. He will have his own children. The same steps done by his parents will be followed by him and his wife to raise their children up. He will need to work hard for the sake of his own family as well as his parents. His parents are old, having different kinds of sickness, and yet still care for their children. His parents grow old and will pass away one day. He will continue with his life, with his own family. Soon, he will grow old and his children will grow up. He will find his children are doing what he did for his parents. His children will take care of him and his wife until the day they hold the last breath. This is life! People can't be excluded from all these although situations might be different for each and everyone of us.

Since the accident happened on mother, i have realized that mother is less energetic and capable in doing many things. She broke her arm, seriously. She had undergone physiotherapy sessions for approximately half a year. Till that she was fully guaranteed by doctor that she need not go for more physiotherapy session, father and i were sending her to hospital each week for a physiotherapy treatment. From what i have seen since mother broke her arm, i definitely understand the importance of family's support and care. I praise my father for being concern and caring for mother. I was touched by father's true love for my mother even though he didn't spell out his love verbally.

I love my father and my mother. They are great parents! I appreciate what they have sacrificed for me. I think it's time for me to repay them. They have really sacrificed too much for me, and they deserve to live their entire lives without worries. And i know, i should make sure that! Work hard for a brighter future, by getting at good results for my studies in the first place. Aiming to get a place to graduate at first-class degree holder position so that i can change the loan status to be scholarships status. Work hard and work smart!! I am looking for a whole new world of mine!!

A WHOLE NEW WORLD

I want to EAT!!

Whew......
Can i have some bak kut teh?
Can i have some chicken with bean sprouts, plus hor fun?
Can i have some tao fu fa?
I miss Ipoh food so much!!!

I have been eating those spicy and reddish food everyday!!
Started feeling hatred!
I don't think i can stand it anymore......give me Ipoh's food, please~~~~TT_TT

There are both myself!!

"What is the time now?" Nicki A asked.

"3.21am" Nicki B answered, in such a simple way.

"Well, i just finished a cup of Old Town Hazelnut Coffee. And guess what, i am feeling so....sleepy!!" Nicki A just finished the last sip, and replied.

"Nah, then u should get another cup of coffee!!"

"Nope! I won't get myself another cup! " her voice was very certain.

"Then what do you want now?" Nicki B was frustrated. She can't stand Nicki A's attitude anymore!

"I am sorry. I just need time to calm down."


Your eyes are in good condition. Please don't be afraid!
There are both myself!!
I have 2 voices in my mind now!!
Desperately, i lost control of my mind...Gosh!

Losing memory

Seems that i am currently facing a huge problem - bad memory.
It's the payback time for my lost-control life during my holiday.
I admit, i really had been eating many instant noodles while i was at home.
I changed my life style.
From a typical human life to a ghost's life?!
Human is suppose to be active in daytime, isn't it?
But for me, daytime is just nice to be in bed.
I actually became a bat?! I will just stay awake until 6 or 7am then only i went to bed.
I should be blaming myself for not taking good care of myself.
It is my responsibility to take care of myself and prepare myself for the next round.
Now that i had ruin my health, i should stop saying those nonsense. It is meaningless now!
I keep losing my memory, even though it just happened a few minutes ago.
What can i do now to recover back my memory???
What else can i do?

How can it be?

Look at my last post!!!
2th May, wtf.

I can't believe that i have not been updating this English blog for almost 2 months.
Am i going to continue ignoring this?
Am i going to stop writing English post?

I am still wondering. How can i improve my English with this kind of attitude??
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Will be going back to UUM soon...
How am i suppose to deal with my studies? With this kind of English standard...
Anyway, it should not be a huge problem to me since the medium language that majority of them to use is Malay. Wtf

I don't get the rationale of using Malay language as the medium language in our lectures.
Globalization, isn't it?
I don't understand! They can always mention about globalization, yet they stand steadily with the use of Malay in our lectures.
Projects all in Malay? Assignments all in Malay? Tests all in Malay? Quizzes all in Malay? wtf...
No wonder people out there are hesitating to hire UUM students.

Boss: Please introduce yourself!

Candidate: My name is XXX. I was taking Entrepreneurship course in UUM. I want to interview this job.

Boss: (What kind of self-introduction session is this?) Hmm...can you tell me more about yourself?

Candidate: ......I......I have 3 siblings.......including me......I have 2 sisters. They are still studying. They are now studying in Sekolah Menengah XXX.

Boss: I didn't ask about your siblings. I am asking more about you!!! (Mad)

Candidate: Err...I don't know dy...

Boss: .......

May be this is the situation which will be facing by me. How sad! Pity myself for being so embarrassing! I don't want to face this kind of situation in future time!!!

Japanese quiz

The second Japanese quiz will be on tomorrow.
Covering lesson 1 and lesson 2.
It is actually rather easy, i think.
But, why am i having such a bad feeling?
I am so scared.

1/1/2009

Yesterday was 2009 new year eve. I did attend my classes.
The first session was at 8am while the second one was at 9.30am.
Actually, i didn't know that my Zetty sensei was so kind(as i feel so far).
I did enjoy with my Japanese second class(the first one with Zetty sensei) to my consternation because one of my senior told me that she is a strict teacher.
Well, to be glad, so far so good.

She ended her class at 9.15am. Then, i rushed to my second session for the day.
It was the Business Growth class conducted solely by Mr. Ooi Yeng Keat, the very most frightening character as i have met before.
However, i was so enjoyed during his second class on yesterday.
Less tension! What a bless!

Now it is already 7.45 in the morning, 1st of January, 2009.
I woke up too early and therefore, i decided to blog about the feeling that i am having right now.
Actually, this is the first time i need to attend class on the 1st of January(normally new year is holiday in my hometown).
I will need to start my class at 9.30am later.
There will be 3 sessions for today~~Public Speaking, Human Resource Management and also Business Law.
Hopefully, my condition can cope with today's classes, though i don't feel well right now.

Taste Good!!!

Feeling hungry? Yeah, you should be.
By the way, i am feeling hungry too.
I am not trying to promote anything. (You have to be clear about this, lolx..)
Well, just want to keep this picture in my memory.
It is delicious, yummy, and you know what? I like it very much.
I like its packaging since i first saw it. Attractive!!!
Yeah, it is cute! (Well, you know. Girls love cutey things.)
The taste of the biscuits is......actually, okay......
It is a sandwich-type biscuits as you can see from the picture.
The special part is that when you eat it, the salty taste of the biscuits and the sweet taste of the strawberry fill will combine together, and it gives you a chemical burst in your mouth!!! (Haha...i bet i am too bombastic in describing the feeling......you won't dare to eat it, right!?)
Well, no matter what......i am just writing this out to be stored in my memory.

Gardenia Chocolate Flavor Bun

This is Gardenia's Chocolate flavor bun.
I am eating it as my breakfast, my lunch, my dinner, and for my supper.
Yes, i mean it!
It serves as my breakfast, replacing those hot-served delicacies (Fried noodles, chee cheong fun, dim-sum and so on).
It serves as my lunch, replacing the nice home-cooked food (Rice with sweet and sour pork, nice home-cooked sup, green vegetables, etc).
It serves as my dinner, replacing Ipoh's nice delicacies as well as my mom's home-cooked rice.
And for my supper,
what else can i choose except for this bun?