Aunty, RIP

Today, i received a sms from my friend.
She told me that her mother passed away.
I was in consternation. I just couldn't believe what i have seen through my handphone's screen.

Later on, i heard from another friend that aunty passed away after she fell down.
Shocking! And speechless.

Hope that my friend will stay strong.

Aunty, RIP.

Sorry, pui.

I am so angry with myself, being crazy and mad.
I have made her angry.
My stupid action had actually hurt her.
I keep blaming myself for what i had done to her.
That's why, i cried, that night.
She has forgave me.
But then, i just feel that i can't forgive myself.
I am so useless.
I am stressed, but then i can't cope with it.
In fact, i have made it worse.
I made myself more stressful.
Then, i hurt people.
What have i done to her, or, to THEM?
Making people sad, angry, and tired.
I am so useless.

WoRRy....

Feeling sooooooooo.......worry!
Worry about everything!
Worry for her!
Worry for myself!
Worry for others!

First, worry for HER!
She is so stubborn.
It is so clear that she is not feeling well.
When we asked her, she denied it.
Today, we forced her to go to see doctor.
At first, she refused. STUBBORN!
Then, when we showed her our 'power', she was taken by us.
Walking to PKU, under a rather hot sun, i pity her.
But then, what to do?
Have to go, by hook or by crook.
When we reach there, we were like....shit,it is closed!
What to do? Have to wait for it to be opened.
She kept on asking Pei San and me to go back.
Reasons?
Didn't want to waste our time...STUBBORN
So, how can i not worry for her?

Second, worry for MYSELF!
I don't have the passion to study.
Until now, non.
I know that i should have started my revision much earlier.
But then, i can't.
I just don't know why.
Everyday, my life is like meaningless.
Why am i describing it as meaningless?
Well, you may digest it yourself.
Wake up - Eat - Study(for a short period only) - Sleep(again) - Eat(again) - Study(much much shorter period) - Eat(don't know what for i eat so much) - Sleep(this time i will sleep until the next day)
WORRIED....

Third, worry for OTHERS!
This is me! BUSYBODY..
Even when things are non of my business, i still want to know.
When i got to know others problems, i would want to be involved(like a 'geh po').
Sometimes, give some suggestions.
Sometmes, let myself be involved, physically.
I am BUSYBODY. Definitely.

Distance & Love

One of my friend broke up with her boyfriend already!!!
I don't really know the reason they broke up, but i guess 'distance' is main reason.
Many couples had broken up because of this reason.
I guess she is in the same case!
What to do to let her feel better? As her friend, i feel that i should do something.
But what can i do?
Nothing can be done by me to make her feel better. Too bad!
All that i can do now is standing beside her, give her support!

Actually i just don't understand why most of the people can't make it through when it comes to distance.
Is it that when you are far far away from your love one, all your love will disappear?
Then, what is love?
I always think that love is above all. Seems that i was wrong!
Love is just a tiny little thing.
When you don't see it, you can't feel it!
Then you will lose it! What is love???

To MY FRIEND,

You will always be supported by us!!!
Remember that no matter what happens, you can always count on us!
True friends are standing beside you!
'Ga Yao!'