GET MYSELF UPGRADED

Finished

2011-05-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

Finally finished watching TLW.
Kinda frustrated with the ending, because this is not the ending that i want.
Sarah Shahi, why did you left the series!! Gosh, i miss Carmen and Shane.
No doubt, in real, SS was the one who made the series turned out to be like this.
But for me, Carmen is pitiful ss she is such an adorable girl. How can Shane hurt people like this!

I have to admit that i am fond to Season 1-3 only.
Though i like to watch Alice and Tasha, also Helena. Yet, Jenny is making me freak out!
How nasty she is! Just can't forgive her for what she did to everybody.
She is hurting every of her friend, but act as if what she does is right. Fuxk!

Till Season4

2010-10-07T02:42:00.000+08:00

Finally, I've finish watched TLW Season 4.
There is someone who makes me feel annoyed!
JENNY, she is the one. What she wrote was terrible and her act was like setting all her friends up. Jenny? Jessie? Bette? Bev? Tina? Nina? Damn it!!!
I just can't bear with it.(Although this is only her character in TLW, i still not able to accept it.) What a GOOD FRIEND, huh?! =_=

Start to like Helena, she has a great and nice body shape. However, her life seems miserable when she was "addicted" to gaming after she met with Catherine. WTF! Losing money and losing her pride as a woman. I mean she was like a maid when she lived with Catherine. Catherine is treating Helena as a/an ________? Shit!! How can she do this to Helena!!!!????

Tasha and Alice, a sweet couple before Tasha was asked to go back to Iraq. Can't forget their sex scene, which was really hot and sexy. Anyway, there was a surprise when DANA showed up in a few minutes in the last episode of Season 4. I miss DANA soooooo much~~~

Gonna stop watching TLW for a short period...Preparing for assignments and gatherings are more important...LOLZ

Dislike him!!!!!

2010-09-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

The L Word Third Season was really a heartrending one! Pity Carmen! I just can't accept that Shane's action who actually escape from her wedding! How could Shane give up such a lovely wife!? Damn Shane's father!! He's the one who influenced Shane.

The McCutcheon family! The McCutcheon genes! Gabriel McCutcheon is a typical Casanova! Shit! Causing Shane's heel-dragging and make her gave up the relationship with Carmen. I hate this man!!!!!

Simple Plan - Crazy

2010-08-28T20:29:00.003+08:00

Simple Plan - Crazy

At first, I didn't even know there is this existence of this song. Not until one day, I opened Song Folder in my lappy and randomly chose this song to listen as if it can be used as background music for one of my assignment, sort of tourists' travel destination documentary. Then, I was totally freak out...wtf

It's so meaningful!!! Especially when I look at the current issues and happenings in the world...(Yeah, I do mean the Malaysian society to be honest!) The lyrics matches so much with the current condition of the world and society.

I miss Dana...T__T

2010-08-28T03:44:00.001+08:00

Where should I start for this post? Well, you know what......I guess I am just being emotional because of Dana's death. Kinda upset when Dana finally lost in the battle of Cancer and she left the world without company by anyone, not even her best friend - Alice. Dana has been my favorite role in The L Word since the first season. I will sure miss her T___T

Actually, there is really an interesting issue in the third season. It's regarding the transition of a female to become a male. Casting by Daniela Sea, Moira or Max has really grabbed my attention. In the series, Kit says to Moira that she will lose the most gifted thing of her by turning to be a man. I remember the gist of the conversation - the transition will perish Moira chance being a woman, which is the most precious thing for a woman. Kit's saying is true for me! Being a woman is good and women do experience more than men do, such as having menstruation. There is a saying "No Pain, No Gain", isn't it?!(Well, I think it apply to the menstrual matter here :P)

By the way, though I had been told by X something concerning Shane and Carmen's relationship. It won't be long-lasting as I wish to, I guess. Nevertheless, I am still excited and looking forward to watch for Shane-Carmen's wedding ceremony. So touched when both Shane and Carmen were blessed by their family members. If this is to happen in Malaysia, I bet there will be one out of hundreds who will get bless from his/her family. Majority of the Asians can be drawn an equal sign to Conservative Mindset. Well, I am not criticizing anybody. In fact, I am just giving out facts and reality of the society.

Guess that I have talked too much, so I will keep my mouth shut until I come across with other interesting or argumentative matters. Till then, I won't talk about anything else, except that I will miss Dana very much. T____T

Say "Hate" to Hypocrites

2010-08-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

When we were born, we were like white paper. Innocent and clean.
When we grow up, we see, listen and feel. We learn.
When we grow elder, we think, analyze and remember. Those memories have gained a place in our brains and hearts.

So, I do not have to pretend innocent for what have i seen.
In fact, I hate hypocrites.
Stop pretending because you do know the fact that you have experiences and knowledge on the matter.

Can't forget this scene

2010-07-31T01:37:00.001+08:00

Never realize that I could be so easily influenced by others, not until I was willing to spend some money to buy the series. Well, if you had read my blog posts before, you definitely know which series I am saying. Hmm...I rarely watch English movies, not to mention the English series. I have no willpower to watch series being shown once for a week. I guess that's the main reason for me not being interested in English series. Anyway, The L Word has got my attention. Spending plenty of my free time for this series, I do agree that this series is interesting. At least, I get to know something novel and different to my usual life.

I know there are some people start to think that I might become a gay or so-called "come-out". Who cares what they think? I know that I am straight. That's enough! Anyway, this is not the point. The gist of today's post is concerning one point being brought out in The L Word. I couldn't forget that there is one scene in The L Word Second Season which is about Alice and Dana went to Adult Shop(Hmm...I don't really know the accurate name for shops selling adult erotica products) searching for "fake cock". *SHY* AT first, Dana's reaction to this was definitely the passive one, while Alice being initiative. However, Dana ignored her self-pride and managed to walk into the adult shop freely.

I know I have been using words to describe one of the scene in the series. Please forgive me because I just couldn't forget this scene. I laughed when I watched the expressions of both Alice and Dana, especially when the worker showed them the "Dinosaur-type" fake penis and the one which can stick on the wall. WTF!! I just can't stop laughing even when I recall back the scene. A scene full of sense of humour...

Till this moment, Alice-Dana, a lovely couple which I like the most. More than any other couple in the series. By the way, I hate Veronica!!>.<

Gone of an opportunity

2010-07-19T15:20:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, I purposely went back to Ipoh for an inteview.
Interview for my 4-month internship placement.
Well, in just few hours ago, I had rejected this post.

Regret? Nahhh...to be frankly, feeling a little bit regret.
Hopefully it's just because of the impact of those medicine.
Thinking that I might have missed an opportunity, I really feel bad.
It's gonna be hard to take in, although I was the one who took the initiative to reject the job.

Gosh!!I'm really sick now, thinking of my internship placement.

Fuxk! 凸=__=凸

Where the hell can I go now?

Index Finger vs Ring Finger

2010-07-18T21:00:00.001+08:00

Recently, my life was totally miserable and depraved!
I was bored even if i was watching The L Word and surfing the Internet for the whole day.
Anyway, this is all about The L Word.

I wonder since when i have come across this series.
Hmm......Yes, i came across with it from a post by Xi Nic regarding one matter being brought out in the First Season of The L Word.
It was concerning the saying of the tendency of someone turning into a gay or lesbian can be seen through by comparing the length of both index finger and ring finger.
Would a person with longer ring finger than index finger prone to be a gay? Well...that seems crazy for me. >_<
However, this had certainly grabbed my attention! That's why I had been trying to get this series.
Well, luckily to have a friend of mine, she was able to get me the DVDs...Now, I enjoy watching this series.

Now that I've finished watching the First Season of The L Word, I am looking forward to finish the second.^^ *Excitedly*
Skipping class, staying at home, enjoying the show!
By the way, how on earth could they grab Dana away from me?!!!!!! T__T
Well, I love Dana more than Shane! <---- Specially to Xi Nic

D' FirST EPiSodE oF The L Word

2010-07-09T05:06:00.002+08:00

The L Word - I am totally spending my precious time for you!

A few hours after I got the DVDs, I had been sacrificing all the energy and time for it.

Had a "Not Bad" thought for the first episode of the series...though i might had felt a little bit of astonishment.

Never ever seen gay-sex, practically.

Well, i mean......i might have read some gay-stories and tried to......imagine wtf. >.<

Don't misunderstand me! Curiosity exists in everybody.

What kind of person would potentially to be considered as a lecher or pervert?

Only God knows the answer.

How on earth can a series to have so much of porno scenes in just an episode? Wtf...

Really had great impact on my mind after seeing such striking scenes......*HELP*

I am gonna have a hard sleep tonight. *CRY-ing*

Piss off you, problems!!!

2010-07-08T17:55:00.000+08:00

No more complaining.
It's time to eliminate the depravation.
I am going to strike a blow for First Class!
It will be challenging...but I am going to try my very best.

Recently, I am annoyed with the internship matter.
The level of Cortisol has been increasing, drastically! (Cortisol...please Google)
Realizing that I was so easy to be provoked, I was trying to avoid problems.
However, PROBLEMS COME TO ME!
Argghhhh...Damn it!
Gonna start to find ways to improve my emotional intelligence...

*Piss off you, problems!!!*

It's time for English, isn't it?

2010-05-15T03:46:00.000+08:00

I should improve my English.
I need to improve my English, written and oral as well.
Since I have made it into UUM, i realized that my English is become poorer and poorer.
I have less chance to converse in English and to write in English.
Academic projects and assignments are mostly in Malay.
Plus, I am a lazy person who is not willing to buy English newspapers everyday.
This is a certain situation for a lazy and lost-passion person -- English proficiency has been lowering.

Sighing. Yet, doing nothing.
HELLO! You there, please wake up!!
Wake up from your sleep, your dream!!
It's time for ENGLISH, dear~

...

2010-02-25T03:26:00.000+08:00

Sorry. I know it is my fault.

I didn't realize that my voice is too loud.

I am so sorry.
Please forgive me.

Mastering the languages isn't easy

2010-02-24T12:26:00.000+08:00

How long have this blog been abandoned? All these while i was blogging in Chinese. Frankly, i wish to write more in English. Nevertheless, it has always come to nothing. What is the reason contributing to this? Who can tell? Even i too, do not understand the reason not blogging in English.

I saw one of my Internet friend's blog (which is in Chinese blog) saying that he has made some kind of funny misunderstanding while chatting with his girlfriend through the MSN. It is true that languages has to be practised continuously. There is no exception for any language. Practice makes perfect, that is what my English tuition teacher, Aunt Josephine has been telling me. Languages is unlike other subjects which can be learned in just a short period. In fact, languages might be a life-long subject for us. One can actually learn to use certain language but the hard thing is to maintain it, not to mention in mastering it. I'm afraid i am currently facing the same thing too.

I know a few languages. Yet, there is lacking of chances for me to use them. Is that contributing to my poorer and poorer mastering of languages? I know how to write in Chinese, English, Malay and a little bit in Japanese. Plus, i can speak Mandarin, Cantonese, English, Malay, Japanese, in which some of the languages might mot be fluent enough to be considered as i am expert in that. Besides that, i can also speak a little of Hakka and Hokkien. Thanks to my mom and my friends for teaching me the languages! Hmm..i think i should think ways to improve my mastering of those languages..

Heading to......

2010-01-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

Time doesn't wait for anyone.
The world is fair to each of us, the residents who live in the Earth.
Without realizing, my university life has almost come to an end. [Well, actually i still have one more year to go. XD] Hahh, just forget about it! LOL...
Frankly, i start to feel the tension of my future life. To be more accurate, the working life.
What i have learned so far throughout the university life is suppose to be the precious and useful asset for me, but the point is, what have i learned?
Hey, wait a minute! I didn't say that nothing i have learned in these three years, ok?
Just that what i have learned is more than i can say. May be to a certain extent, it is more than i can realize.
In short, i learned to become a good person. [That's what i think, others may not agree with me though.]
In fact, i am still learning, to be a better person.
Well, guys. Wish me luck, ok? Thanks^^

Work Hard & Smart

2009-12-23T03:51:00.001+08:00

Time doesn't wait for anyone. This is the unchangeable rule of life for each and everyone in this world. Nobody can be excluded from growing older and older. I have learned this from my mother. I am growing older, so do my mother. Too bad, she is weaker. The world is round. Things are changing every moment. Human's life is showing the best example on the uncontrollable changing rule.

A baby is born. Then, it will turn to be a child. He receives love and care from his parents. He will grow to be a teenager. He then fall in love, and will get married. He will have his own children. The same steps done by his parents will be followed by him and his wife to raise their children up. He will need to work hard for the sake of his own family as well as his parents. His parents are old, having different kinds of sickness, and yet still care for their children. His parents grow old and will pass away one day. He will continue with his life, with his own family. Soon, he will grow old and his children will grow up. He will find his children are doing what he did for his parents. His children will take care of him and his wife until the day they hold the last breath. This is life! People can't be excluded from all these although situations might be different for each and everyone of us.

Since the accident happened on mother, i have realized that mother is less energetic and capable in doing many things. She broke her arm, seriously. She had undergone physiotherapy sessions for approximately half a year. Till that she was fully guaranteed by doctor that she need not go for more physiotherapy session, father and i were sending her to hospital each week for a physiotherapy treatment. From what i have seen since mother broke her arm, i definitely understand the importance of family's support and care. I praise my father for being concern and caring for mother. I was touched by father's true love for my mother even though he didn't spell out his love verbally.

I love my father and my mother. They are great parents! I appreciate what they have sacrificed for me. I think it's time for me to repay them. They have really sacrificed too much for me, and they deserve to live their entire lives without worries. And i know, i should make sure that! Work hard for a brighter future, by getting at good results for my studies in the first place. Aiming to get a place to graduate at first-class degree holder position so that i can change the loan status to be scholarships status. Work hard and work smart!! I am looking for a whole new world of mine!!

A WHOLE NEW WORLD

Law & Finance

2009-11-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

Entrepreneurial law, or entrepreneurial legal aspects, is the most torturing subject for me in this semester. Seriously, i hate to be dull. I am not good in memorizing those dull facts!! Though they are true facts, i hate to memorize. I still remember what Pn. Lau had told me during my secondary school time - Never memorize formulas! I have been holding to this philosophy until this moment. Can this be applied to a law subject? I'm afraid it can't. Due to this subject, i have been eating a lot. Just to release my tension!! I can't take it anymore!! Stressed up!!

The second paper is entrepreneurial finance. Another subject which i hatred very much!!! I am not good in memorizing, i tell you. But this subject requires me to memorize those formulas, or equations in order to answer for final exam. Oh my goodness, it can really kill me then. Frankly, i did not pay attention during class. I shouldn't be blamed anyway. No one understands what lecturer was teaching. He is like those so-called Professor Madya characters. He is a typical one, Professor Madya, who teaches nothing to his students. Final exam merely counts on ourselves. Another problem for me! A big one!!

Well, i think i need to stop complaining. I am lacking of time to study!! Law, Finance, you both are making me crazy....@@"

I want to EAT!!

2009-10-10T02:08:00.000+08:00

Whew......
Can i have some bak kut teh?
Can i have some chicken with bean sprouts, plus hor fun?
Can i have some tao fu fa?
I miss Ipoh food so much!!!

I have been eating those spicy and reddish food everyday!!
Started feeling hatred!
I don't think i can stand it anymore......give me Ipoh's food, please~~~~TT_TT

There are both myself!!

2009-09-23T04:04:00.000+08:00

"What is the time now?" Nicki A asked.

"3.21am" Nicki B answered, in such a simple way.

"Well, i just finished a cup of Old Town Hazelnut Coffee. And guess what, i am feeling so....sleepy!!" Nicki A just finished the last sip, and replied.

"Nah, then u should get another cup of coffee!!"

"Nope! I won't get myself another cup! " her voice was very certain.

"Then what do you want now?" Nicki B was frustrated. She can't stand Nicki A's attitude anymore!

"I am sorry. I just need time to calm down."

Your eyes are in good condition. Please don't be afraid!
There are both myself!!
I have 2 voices in my mind now!!
Desperately, i lost control of my mind...Gosh!

~^ Sharing ^~ [A1 boys, you guys are so cool!]

2009-09-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

Is this blog abandoned? Nah, i don't think so.
I just seldom write here.
Anyway, may be i should write here more often?

Well, since that i have been neglecting this blog for quite a moment, i think the first post should be an interesting one. (Hmm, at least it should be interesting for me.)

Okok, i stop here.
Let's enjoy the songs!!

Caught in the middle - A1

Heaven by your side - A1

One more try - A1

Same old brand new you - A1

No more - A1

For this moment, let me just share these few songs, all from A1!!
Their songs are so nice!! They are cool!!

Aunty, RIP

2009-07-17T18:41:00.003+08:00

Today, i received a sms from my friend.
She told me that her mother passed away.
I was in consternation. I just couldn't believe what i have seen through my handphone's screen.

Later on, i heard from another friend that aunty passed away after she fell down.
Shocking! And speechless.

Hope that my friend will stay strong.

Aunty, RIP.

Losing memory

2009-07-15T12:17:00.003+08:00

Seems that i am currently facing a huge problem - bad memory.
It's the payback time for my lost-control life during my holiday.
I admit, i really had been eating many instant noodles while i was at home.
I changed my life style.
From a typical human life to a ghost's life?!
Human is suppose to be active in daytime, isn't it?
But for me, daytime is just nice to be in bed.
I actually became a bat?! I will just stay awake until 6 or 7am then only i went to bed.
I should be blaming myself for not taking good care of myself.
It is my responsibility to take care of myself and prepare myself for the next round.
Now that i had ruin my health, i should stop saying those nonsense. It is meaningless now!
I keep losing my memory, even though it just happened a few minutes ago.
What can i do now to recover back my memory???
What else can i do?

How can it be?

2009-06-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

Look at my last post!!!
2th May, wtf.

I can't believe that i have not been updating this English blog for almost 2 months.
Am i going to continue ignoring this?
Am i going to stop writing English post?

I am still wondering. How can i improve my English with this kind of attitude??
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Will be going back to UUM soon...
How am i suppose to deal with my studies? With this kind of English standard...
Anyway, it should not be a huge problem to me since the medium language that majority of them to use is Malay. Wtf

I don't get the rationale of using Malay language as the medium language in our lectures.
Globalization, isn't it?
I don't understand! They can always mention about globalization, yet they stand steadily with the use of Malay in our lectures.
Projects all in Malay? Assignments all in Malay? Tests all in Malay? Quizzes all in Malay? wtf...
No wonder people out there are hesitating to hire UUM students.

Boss: Please introduce yourself!

Candidate: My name is XXX. I was taking Entrepreneurship course in UUM. I want to interview this job.

Boss: (What kind of self-introduction session is this?) Hmm...can you tell me more about yourself?

Candidate: ......I......I have 3 siblings.......including me......I have 2 sisters. They are still studying. They are now studying in Sekolah Menengah XXX.

Boss: I didn't ask about your siblings. I am asking more about you!!! (Mad)

Candidate: Err...I don't know dy...

Boss: .......

May be this is the situation which will be facing by me. How sad! Pity myself for being so embarrassing! I don't want to face this kind of situation in future time!!!

TaGGed BY HyPERacTive

2009-05-02T13:11:00.002+08:00

1.My name: Nicki Foo

2.My Birthday : 1391987

3.Who tagged you : Hyperactive~ Ah girl

4.Name 5 best friends : No such things as BEST FRIENDS...all are my friends^^

5.What do you wished for birthday : Then..I should say that i am greedy! I wish all my wishes will come true...XD

6.Happy things that happened recently : Glad to go home!! After such a long period...of hard work!

7.Most stressed about recently : Nah~ stress? Disappeared already! ^^

8.What is your dream about future : Hope to get a secure job when i graduate.

9.Do you have someone you like : LIKE unlike LOVE!! Of cause i have people that i like, in fact there are many of them.

10.Will visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : Hmm, too bad. I don't think we will have class gathering this year. However, i will still go back to pay them a visit...Miss them so much!!!

11.Most happy to hang out with : Frankly, my cousin sister and also my peers!

12.If two of your friends were having conflicts : I have encountered this situation before. Just let them settle by themselves! They are not CHILDREN anymore..

13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : ANYWHERE, as long as he is beside me.

14.What to do in Christmas : Not sure

15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : HMM..i don't celebrate Christmas XD

16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : Show frustrated face!!!

17.How many siblings do you have : 0

18.Favorite song(Female) : There are lots of nice songs outside there! Why should i choose one?

19.Favorite song(Male) : There are lots of nice songs outside there! Why should i choose one?

20.Favorite Color : WHITE!!!

21.Flush before using the toilets? : Hehe, flush AFTER using the toilets!

22.Love me not? : Is this a joke? I am straight!!

23.Affectionate to guys or girls : Both...(n_n)

24.What do you wants to shout out loudly : I want MONEY!!!!

25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : WHY NOT???

26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : If not, what should you take off? Your shirt??? (BTW, if you see this, WC is water closet.)

27.Who’s the bastard : So far nobody...

28.What’s the current affection : Surfing the Net...

29.Sleeps uglily : Definitely

30.Whats the time now : 2.12pm

31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : Of cause not!

32.Weight : Hmm, not very sure about that...but i am sure that i have gained weight!!!!>.<

33.Weather today : Raining but hot...

34.Are you pregnant : I am fat! Not pregnant!

35.What will you do if you win a lottery : WINDFALL GAIN??? I don't think i have this luck...

36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : Go around the campus and have a thorough look!!

【People Tagged】[you may ignore d tag, but please treat me a meal when we meet each other]

1. 晓双

2. Jasmine

3. Yeong Sin

4. Doreen

5. Wai Yin

6. Yi Chyi

7. Han Siang

8. Fabian

9. Purplepooh

10. 灰之天使

01-【Does no.4 know no.6?】： Know

02-【No.10 is a male or?】：MALE..

03-【 The hobby of no.8】：Play in forum

04-【Does no. 1 have any siblings】：Yes

05-【The surname of of no.7】：EOH

06-【Does no.10 have alot of friends?】: I think so...

07-【Anyone tackling no.4?】: Dunno..

08-【If no.2 is being introduced?】：Don't understand...

09-【The favourite colour of no.6】: Too bad...I don't know

12-【Where is no.5 studying currently?】：Singapore

13-【How do you know no.10?】: Forum...

14-【Whats the difference between the birthmonth of no.1 and you?】：4 months earlier than mine

15-【Ever hang out with no.9?】：No

16-【Do you like to chat with no.2?】: Hmm, never chat before...

17-【Like to be with no.3?】：Haha...cannot la!!

18-【How do you think about no.7?】：Handsome but kepoh lo....

19-【How do you think about no.9?】：He can write well!

20-【Do you love no.5?】：I like her...NOT love la!

1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : Hyperactive lo~~~

2.How long have you known him/her : About half a year...

3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Friends are important! Of cause she is important lo~~

4.Your relationship with him/her : Friend and......secret!

5.Whats his/hers hobby? : Playing guitar i think...she has so many hobbies wor...

6.What do you think about his/her personality? : Helpful, funny...

7.His/her points of importance in your heart : Like other friends- IMPORTANT!

＊1st thing before sleep : Close my eyes XD

＊1st thing after awaking from sleep : Open my eyes XD

＊Your idol : Sammi Cheng

＊Favourite season : Spring

＊Worked part-time before? : Nope!

＊Times worked : 0

＊Country that wanted to go most : Iceland

＊Personality hated : Bad-tempered

＊Are you a crybaby? : I don't think i am

＊You laugh a lot? : Probably..

＊Do you like to go out alone? : NO

＊What time you wake up if it was a holiday? : Sleep until i am satisfied!

＊Today’s weather（Sunny Rainy Cloudy）: Rainy but hot..

＊Choose between Friends and Lover : Can't answer..

＊Choose between Chances and Fates : Fates

＊Are you narcissist? : No

＊Is this questionnaire long? : Obviously!

＊How to make yourself feel better every time? : Listen to songs, eating

＊Favorite food : Too many delicious food...

＊Do you like ice? : Yes

＊Are you full of happiness? : Currently... not really!

＊Which are the friends that you cared the most? : Friends who need help!

＊Whats the most important item in your bed room? : FAN! It is damn hot!!!

＊Most consistent dream at sleep : ??

＊Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : Depends on my mood..

＊Whats the meaning of life? : Look, listen and feel the world! Then, learn all that you can..

＊Do you know？（See if you can answer this！）: Know? No! (But i think i already answered this question) XD

＊When do you hate me? : Haha..secret between you and me..

＊Like the day you were born or been into the society?: Birth date, you mean? Thanks to mom!

＊Like Taoism or Confucianism？ : I like 庄子

＊Favorite cake? : Chocolate, banana....etc

＊Can we stop this game now? : What game do you mean?

＊Do you like sardins? ^^ : NO

＊Who knows you the best? : Don't know...seems that everybody knows me well

＊IQ higher or EQ? : Both also low...

＊Computer or Mobile Phone : ?? I have both..

＊Prefer to sleep or play? : Play!

＊Friendster or Facebook? : I have both leh! What kind of question??

＊Whats your wish right now? : Everything is getting better!!

＊Tired? : Hmm, ya..

＊Favorite drinks : Water??!

＊What do you think of the humanity and personality of the person who tagged you? : Refer back to the middle of the questionnaire la!

Time is flying;I am hesitating

2009-04-11T01:59:00.003+08:00

Time is flying. Yet, i am still hesitating.
I told daddy and mummy that i am going to face a big academic challenge this semester.
They did not really believe me. Though what i said is a truth.
I regretted. I was regretting. I had been regretting.
I regret. I am regretting. I have been regretting.
What did i do to myself?
Why did i put myself into this situation?
I should not be involved in so much activities.
I should not be the leader for the group project.
I should not be the assistant director of the event.
Just because of the everlasting activities, group projects and event, i did something unbearable!
I gave up in mid-semester exams and quizzes.
Unforgivable! Unbearable!
I hatred myself.
Consequently, i lost my mind.
Frankly, i was so stressed up until i hide myself in the virtual world.
Trying to release my tension by chatting with people that we never met before.
More stress equals to more online time.
More online time equals to more stress.
Why am i getting this kind of addiction??? It is so tiring.
I just want to study hard for my future. Yet, i am not sure the probability of success.

Forgot who am i

2009-03-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i feel like i want to write something about myself.
I started to forget:
Who i am?
Where did i come from?
How old am i?
How did i come along until this level?
So how am i suppose to tell myself about who i am?

I am Yeng Yeng. An ordinary but doesn't want to be the ordinary Ipoh girl, who comes from a family consists of my father and my mother. I was born in 1987, in the ninth month. Yes, a typical Virgo girl! I am a perfectionist!! I want the best thing, i want my self to be the best among the best. WTF, this is the reason why i lost myself! Let me do what Michael Wong has been singing - I am who i am......Got it!!!??? Still, didn't get it...>.< How stupid i am!!!

[Choosen by Hyperactivegirl]

2009-03-14T17:39:00.003+08:00

1. Crazy stuff u did before.
I cycled to my friend's residential hall and hang out with her and other net friends. We chit-chatted until the next morning then only i cycled back to my residential hall. Just took a bath then i went to my co-curricular activity in Alor Star. Didn't sleep for whole night just for that sudden-on gathering...lolx

2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
Currently is surfing the Internet...

3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you go back to the past ?
Definitely, sure, certainly, of cause!! I never want to be an adult!!

4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow ?
Never thought about this! People won't know when he or she will die...

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?
Can i say, there are too many of them? My family, my beloved friends, myself...

6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
So far, just had the feeling of love from my family...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
Losing my confidence. Without confidence, i can't face with any circumstances.

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?
I feel like i want to run away from my university, find a peaceful place, have a nice and sound sleep.

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
No. I am coward...especially in dealing with relationship.

10.Do you think you are special?
I am trying to be the special one. So what do you think?

11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
Smoking, untidy.

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
Just to bring some problems and of cause some laughter to everyone else.

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
Yes, whenever they treat me bad...such as asking me to take over his/her job when it is his/her responsibility.

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
I rather die! I can't stop to enjoy all kinds of food.

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
HAPPY...of cause!!!

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
I want to be more stupid. Thinking lots of things is torturing!!!

17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
Never think about that...by the way, i don't think i will be going to heaven...

18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
Chinese song-窗外, because i am listening to it right now.

19. What is your plan when you become an old man or old woman?
Live a lotus-eater type of life...

20. Do u think ur Life is meaningful enough?
No, it is still lacking of something!

5 people that I want to pick up:
1.waiyin
2.晓双
3.眼睛
4.hong_87
5.汉祥

Public Speaking

2009-02-20T04:54:00.003+08:00

Public Speaking, is not as easy as i think.
I have been talking in front of people all this while, during my class presentations.
Or, that day i was rather lucky to get the lecturer's attention, then only he would asked me to stand in front of the class and gave a talk...
It is actually a piece of cake for me to talk to the whole class by just using some simple words and the lacking presentation skills.
It is damn easy i can tell you!!!

Hey, but i have a question here!!
Why did i shiver during my first class presentation for my Public Speaking class?
In fact, if we look at the size of the class, it was rather small i think.
27 students including me.
I did talk spontaneously in front of an almost 100-student class, but i failed in a class consisting of ONLY 27 people, including the gorgeous lecturer, Ms. Eny.
It is ridiculous, i tell you!!!
Insane!!!!!!

By the way, i am now preparing my outline for my second speech, persuasive speech...
Hopefully, i will not be getting all these problems during my presentation...
Desperately...

Japanese quiz

2009-02-10T12:01:00.002+08:00

The second Japanese quiz will be on tomorrow.
Covering lesson 1 and lesson 2.
It is actually rather easy, i think.
But, why am i having such a bad feeling?
I am so scared.

-negative-

2009-01-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

2009, is it a bad year for me?
Mom has got into a car crash.
Auntie had passed away.
Uncle Yat Ming too, had left this world.
Every happening seems to be in negative mode.
So do i, now.

I am strong.Yet, I am weak.

2009-01-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

I am strong.
I am strong, do you know that?
I am strong, do i know that?
I am really strong.
I know, i really know that.

I am weak.
I am weak, do you know that?
I am weak, do i know that?
I am really weak.
I know, i am certain about that.

Mentally, i am strong.
Physically, i am weak.
I am strong. Yet, i am weak.
I am having double-sided mindset.
I think i am going to be crazy soon.

1/1/2009

2009-01-01T07:59:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was 2009 new year eve. I did attend my classes.
The first session was at 8am while the second one was at 9.30am.
Actually, i didn't know that my Zetty sensei was so kind(as i feel so far).
I did enjoy with my Japanese second class(the first one with Zetty sensei) to my consternation because one of my senior told me that she is a strict teacher.
Well, to be glad, so far so good.

She ended her class at 9.15am. Then, i rushed to my second session for the day.
It was the Business Growth class conducted solely by Mr. Ooi Yeng Keat, the very most frightening character as i have met before.
However, i was so enjoyed during his second class on yesterday.
Less tension! What a bless!

Now it is already 7.45 in the morning, 1st of January, 2009.
I woke up too early and therefore, i decided to blog about the feeling that i am having right now.
Actually, this is the first time i need to attend class on the 1st of January(normally new year is holiday in my hometown).
I will need to start my class at 9.30am later.
There will be 3 sessions for today~~Public Speaking, Human Resource Management and also Business Law.
Hopefully, my condition can cope with today's classes, though i don't feel well right now.

Please drive carefully

2008-12-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

I am writing this post just to remind all the people out there.
Please drive carefully.
Yesterday, i just scolded one of my friend who was in a car accident.
Her incident actually put me in consternation.
I was shocked and i could not help her.
She was blaming herself for putting herself in that situation.
She blamed herself for giving trouble to her family.
She cried. And she kept on crying.
What can we do to help her? NOTHING.
There is nothing we can do to help her.
I did scold her for blaming herself. Do i have the power to do that?
Frankly, i don't know. I don't want to know, either.
Now i just want to remind you people out there.
Always pay your full attention while you are on the road.
Just keep in mind that people who love you are still around.

Taste Good!!!

2008-12-02T00:48:00.005+08:00

Feeling hungry? Yeah, you should be.
By the way, i am feeling hungry too.
I am not trying to promote anything. (You have to be clear about this, lolx..)
Well, just want to keep this picture in my memory.
It is delicious, yummy, and you know what? I like it very much.
I like its packaging since i first saw it. Attractive!!!
Yeah, it is cute! (Well, you know. Girls love cutey things.)
The taste of the biscuits is......actually, okay......
It is a sandwich-type biscuits as you can see from the picture.
The special part is that when you eat it, the salty taste of the biscuits and the sweet taste of the strawberry fill will combine together, and it gives you a chemical burst in your mouth!!! (Haha...i bet i am too bombastic in describing the feeling......you won't dare to eat it, right!?)
Well, no matter what......i am just writing this out to be stored in my memory.

Gardenia Chocolate Flavor Bun

2008-12-01T14:28:00.005+08:00

This is Gardenia's Chocolate flavor bun.
I am eating it as my breakfast, my lunch, my dinner, and for my supper.
Yes, i mean it!
It serves as my breakfast, replacing those hot-served delicacies (Fried noodles, chee cheong fun, dim-sum and so on).
It serves as my lunch, replacing the nice home-cooked food (Rice with sweet and sour pork, nice home-cooked sup, green vegetables, etc).
It serves as my dinner, replacing Ipoh's nice delicacies as well as my mom's home-cooked rice.
And for my supper,
what else can i choose except for this bun?

I am a bad girl

2008-10-08T15:18:00.003+08:00

Feeling tired rushing for my assignments.
Feeling unhappy on somebody.
Feeling lazy to revise, even though my final exam is around the corner.
Tired, unhappy and lazy...
My life is full with 'negativeness'!!!

I know that i should not continue with this kind of lifestyle.
Yet, i still continue to do it.
I wonder who i am.
Such a lazy girl!!!
BAD!!!!!

Failures bordering me

2008-09-23T04:57:00.002+08:00

Why is this happening again to me?
WHY? WHY? WHY?
Why can't i find myself?
Why can't i find my true self?
I lost my passion.
I lost my desire.
I lost my determination.
I lost my 'fire'.
I lost everything...except for my weight. (Please stay calm! Don't laugh!)

Pei San scolded me for being like this.
She is true.
I have changed.
From BAD to WORSE...
I am not clever and not smart, either.
What i can boast about me WERE just some passion, determination and desire.
Now that all these things have gone away from me,
What is left with me?
It is merely FAILURE...

hatred....

2008-08-04T10:59:00.002+08:00

I was quite emotional these few days.
I could be in a happy mood, and turned into a very bad mood in the next minute.
I don't know what is happening with me.
I just feel what i feel!!
I just hate to hide my feeling.
That's why i show them out!
Then i hurt people.
Why is this happening to me??
I don't want my life to be like this.
Yet, i have to accept it!!!!
Hatred so much.....

IMPORTANT FOR US AS HUMAN BEING TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE

2008-07-17T19:04:00.005+08:00

E-commerce is not a new term for us. We know that people can transact through the internet. From B-2-B, B-2-C, or even B-2-G, all these are just showing that how e-commerce has been so successful in the present business world. But i had just come across an interesting topic. Last night, my e-commerce lecturer told us many thing related to the e-commerce.

First of all, does anyone have any idea why McDonald's, KFC, Pizza Hut, Domino Pizza... have so many customers and gain so much support from our local people? May be you won't be noticing this if i don't mention here. Actually, one of the main reason is the layout, design, and color of the outlets. Did you notice that all the businesses that i mention above are using red, yellow, blue...colors in their outlets' design? According to my lecturer, RED color can stimulate humans' appetite. And this is supported by experiments and researches. Wow, it is eye-opening!!!

Then, it comes to "taste" case!!! Actually, have anybody ever think of how people sell fruits and perfume by using the e-commerce system? Just imagine if you are one of the customer who wants to buy fruits online. How are you going to know too what level the fruits in the online market is in? What size is it? How nice it taste? No one can know the exact taste or size of the fruit, right? Then, how do those businessmen do their online business selling fruits? Let me tell you again! In Holland, a country which is famous with its agricultural business, has the solution for this problem. It has some high-technology equipments in helping to set a standard of taste and size for their production. Standardized!!! Another eye-opener...

After listening to my lecturer's explanation(or actually is information), i feel that it is very crucial for us to be well informed in world happenings. VERY IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!

ADD DROP

2008-07-11T15:43:00.004+08:00

Just to blog about what i have seen a few days back.
In this add-drop week, i got to see something really shocking, full of consternation.
Imagine a few hundreds (or probably almost a thousand) of students trying to do the add drop.
Regardless of what semester they are in, when they need to do the add drop, they just use a method ~~~ PUSH, PULL, KICK, SCREAM, SCOLD, BEAT...
You may use whatever method get into the computer lab as long as you are capable to.
I don't understand! UUM is a management school.
Why can't we see any management in dealing with this add drop system?
Hundreds of people with a computer lab???
What a mess here???
Management school?
You may want to rename it as "Highly-needed management school"!!!

5/7 post

2008-07-05T23:06:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was 4^th of July, 2008. I will never forget this day for the rest of my life. I needed to go back into UUM, my present university. Well, a few reasons for this:

1. The actors of TVB Hong Kong Drama ‘Tong Sam Fong Bou’ will be coming to Ipoh for a meet-the-fans session. They will be at Ipoh Parade on 5^th and 6^th of July. I wish so much to attend this function, but sad to say, I need to be back into UUM just the day before the meet-the-fans session. For this reason, I am STILL feeling sad and disappointed.

2. I know I shouldn’t ask for too much. But I just feel the time that I spent with my daddy is not enough; I hope to spend more time with my daddy. Going back into UUM means I have less time to spend with my family. At that moment, I wish time CAN BE stopped.

3. I was worn out simply because I need to move all those big and heavy boxes of personal things from the Portion B’s pantry to my room, which is in Portion D. Luckily I had Yen Ni to help me to carry those boxes. If I were to carry those boxes all by myself, I bet I won’t be able to write this post now.

4. Plus, I was so ‘lucky’ to have my ‘auntie’s visit’ (hehe, If u have seen the movie casted by Sammi Cheng and Richie Ren, you will surely know which movie that I mean) while I was busy carrying the boxes and unpacking all of it. It is really tiring. Losing blood and energy at the same time…I was totally worn out!!!

Tomorrow will be a new semester for me. A new semester means a new start! Well, as what Wai Yin has told me “Kick off a good start!!” Yeah, hopefully…

muu ot kcab^.^

2008-06-27T16:01:00.003+08:00

Still have one more week before going back to uni.

Life will definitely be soooooo.......HECTIC!!

Oh my god....

Hope that this coming semester will be more enjoyable.

Really hoping to get a better uni life in this coming sem.

Hate

2008-06-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

Should i hate her?
As i have known what she has done to my family.
She talks bad of my family.
I don't understand why she acts like this.
She has been teasing everyone including her family members.
That includes my family.

Who else in my family has the same characteristic like her?
I can't imagine.
She is the only one, who has the 'black-est' heart in this world!
She won't care about the family relationship.
She likes to hurt people's heart.
I just don't understand why such people can do this kind of things to her own family members.
Or may be she doesn't want to recognize our relationship.
Who knows what the hell she is thinking about?!
I just can't accept her action.
Never!

Going back to SMI

2008-06-12T14:43:00.006+08:00

yOoNg pEi & YEng yeNg

Today, Yoong Pei and i went back to St. Michael Institution. Our main purpose is to find our teachers, and share with them our university life. Too bad, we just managed to find some teachers only. Well, i must admit that i really forgot some of the teachers' names. (Sorry, my memory isn't good AT ALL!!) Luckily, we were able to chit-chat with some of our teachers.

Mrs. Tan Eng Sim~~~ She wasn't able to recognize neither one of us. However, according to her, she remembers me. But then, for Yoong Pei, she just feel that she is familiar to her. This made Yoong Pei quite upset, because she cares whether teachers remember her or not. Sorry, Yoong Pei!! May be you were not as 'keh poh' as i was during school days!!!

Pn. Geetha~~~ Hmm...she still looked as loving as she was. I miss her smile, so nice! So nice of her still remembering me!!!

Pn. Ratan~~~ Ohhhh....haha, of cause, she still remembers me!! In fact, i think she really has a good memory of her students or former students. I actually feel blessed because i had her as my Maths teacher when i was in Form6. Maths is extremely important for each and everyone of us, no matter who you are or which field you are in. Well, i really want to thank her for teaching me Maths. Thanks, Pn. Ratan.

Last, but not least.....
Mr. Karu~~~ Hmm...a strict but kind teacher! He was very busy since the moment we got into the earth of SMI. God Blessed!!! Finally, he was able to sit down and had a talk with both of us. Haha...i must admit that he looked handsome when he laughs. Really, if you get the chance to see that, you will know what i mean. I feel happy to be able to chat with him and of cause, sharing some uni experience with him...

I am so happy to get back to see my teachers.... Yeah Yeah!!!

Live my life ,,,

2008-05-20T20:44:00.005+08:00

Finally, i am back to Ipoh.
My hometown.
I still remember a few days back before i could get back to Ipoh, my life was sucks...
No entertainment.
No energy.
No passion to study.
My life was like hell.
So sad...
Though i still had a companion - Lai Theng, but i just felt not enough.
I needed more.
More people to chat with me.
More things to think about.
More entertainment.

Now...
I am here, in Ipoh.
Hope to get more fun, more entertainment.
Don't want to be bored!
Just want to live my life meaningfully.
Can i???

VuLNeRAbLe...NoT mE!

2008-05-08T11:58:00.004+08:00

I have never been so disappointed like what i feel right now.
Finance, i thought i can beat you.
But now, i am sure that you have beaten me.
You make me tired, you make me suffered.
I thought i can aim for an A, but now even B+ also become my dream.
Just a DREAM.
Now, the dream has gone far far away from me.
I thought i am vulnerable, but it seems that i am not.
SAD......

Sorry, pui.

2008-04-30T14:27:00.004+08:00

I am so angry with myself, being crazy and mad.
I have made her angry.
My stupid action had actually hurt her.
I keep blaming myself for what i had done to her.
That's why, i cried, that night.
She has forgave me.
But then, i just feel that i can't forgive myself.
I am so useless.
I am stressed, but then i can't cope with it.
In fact, i have made it worse.
I made myself more stressful.
Then, i hurt people.
What have i done to her, or, to THEM?
Making people sad, angry, and tired.
I am so useless.

WoRRy....

2008-04-21T21:40:00.003+08:00

Feeling sooooooooo.......worry!
Worry about everything!
Worry for her!
Worry for myself!
Worry for others!

First, worry for HER!
She is so stubborn.
It is so clear that she is not feeling well.
When we asked her, she denied it.
Today, we forced her to go to see doctor.
At first, she refused. STUBBORN!
Then, when we showed her our 'power', she was taken by us.
Walking to PKU, under a rather hot sun, i pity her.
But then, what to do?
Have to go, by hook or by crook.
When we reach there, we were like....shit,it is closed!
What to do? Have to wait for it to be opened.
She kept on asking Pei San and me to go back.
Reasons?
Didn't want to waste our time...STUBBORN
So, how can i not worry for her?

Second, worry for MYSELF!
I don't have the passion to study.
Until now, non.
I know that i should have started my revision much earlier.
But then, i can't.
I just don't know why.
Everyday, my life is like meaningless.
Why am i describing it as meaningless?
Well, you may digest it yourself.
Wake up - Eat - Study(for a short period only) - Sleep(again) - Eat(again) - Study(much much shorter period) - Eat(don't know what for i eat so much) - Sleep(this time i will sleep until the next day)
WORRIED....

Third, worry for OTHERS!
This is me! BUSYBODY..
Even when things are non of my business, i still want to know.
When i got to know others problems, i would want to be involved(like a 'geh po').
Sometimes, give some suggestions.
Sometmes, let myself be involved, physically.
I am BUSYBODY. Definitely.

Crazy + Mad + Insane

2008-04-20T21:40:00.005+08:00

We are definitely mad...
Sleeping for almost half a day.
After that, feeling regret.
So started to do revision.
Not even an hour of revision, we started to feel sleepy.
Hahaha.........
Have to figure out solution to solve this problem, right??
Well, finally came out with a solution - exercise.
Actually, we had planned to exercise in the evening, around 6pm.
Nevertheless, forced to do so earlier...Much much earlier....
We went for jogging around 4.45pm
Too bad...Just the two of us... Mad.
Crazy and insane.
After jogging, we head to FTM (Faculty of Information Technology) just to surf the Internet.
Really crazy...both of us.
What to do?
We are having final exams leh.....

Desperately hoping for it!

2008-04-15T13:27:00.004+08:00

Life is really lethargic.
6 hours of sleep, cumulated for two days.
I think i am going to die very soon.
I was in consternation when i heard that there would be no more places for the subjects which i needed desperately.
3 subjects, at a single glance, all gone.
What the hell is going on?
It is heart-broken when you look at the thing that you want lost in just a simple glance.
Oh my god...
Praying hard for the subjects...
Repaid by a huge disappointment...
Life is really tiring.
This is a reality!
Even when you work extra hard, when you give extra passion on something, it doesn't appear that what you have done gives you what you actually hope.
This is my case.
Having known this bad news, i am down into a dilemma.
Hopefully the other subjects which i wish to add are still available!

Be prepared before you go for an interview!

2008-04-06T13:53:00.005+08:00

Given an offer for applying a local scholarship, I am blessed.
However, it is just an offer for application.
Nothing is certain.
I know.
Wish for it.
A friend told me that i have to be prepared for the interview session.
Preparing for those common, yet tricky questions.
You have to be outstanding among your competitors.
How can you do that?

Well, you may want to try this...
1. Think and guess what kind of questions will they ask.
2. Think of those common and dull answers. Wait a minute! This step should be avoided during your preparation process.
3. Based on those questions which they probably will ask, you have to think of the answers which
are creative. What I mean here is, your answers shouldn't be rather same as those others may easily think about.
4. With all your answers, head for the interview session!

Process Writing

2008-03-30T10:21:00.004+08:00

Process Writing ---
Do you know what it is about?
The process of writing an essay!!!
If i were to write essays under this kind of process during my secondary school days, i would better kill myself.
I do mean it!!
Kill me first before i kill myself.
Without knowing the purpose of undergoing this process, we were forced to follow what the authorities have said.
Write your 1st draft, then give to your friends to check.
Next, modify your 1st draft according to the corrections from your friends, and come out with your 2nd draft.
Do the same as step 1!
Then, hand in to your lecturer to check for errors.
After that, you will get your draft 1 and draft 2 from your lecturer.
You will then write the 3rd draft!
Undergoing the same process, then you will prepare for your final copy.
Finally, hand in all the 4 essays (Draft 1,2,3 and Final Copy).
Finish!!!!!The process of writing!

English, please forgive me!!!!!!!!

2008-03-18T14:28:00.004+08:00

I have been writing Chinese blog all this while.
I shouldn't do this anymore.
I have ignored my English blog.
How can i do this to myself having known that my English is not good enough??
If i were to continue to ignore my English, i am sure that i won't be able to speak, write, read, or listen to English anymore.
If i were to do that, i think i will disappoint Auntie Jo ~ my English tuition teacher.
Plus, English is important in our life.
We have to use it all the time.
Without a good command of English, we can't survive in this world.
Right?

No matter you agree or not, please leave me a comment!
Thanks!！！！

Congratulations!!! I am JEaLouS!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-18T09:34:00.006+08:00

Two days ago, i was able to meet with a senior that i have known through Friendster.
During his convocation...
Frankly, i didn't really remember his face at that time.
With only a hand phone and just kept on messaging, it was hard to meet with him.
At last, he called me.
Then only, we managed to see each other.
He looks like whom i saw from Friendster.
Not much change.
But, for him, i looked different from whom he saw through Friendster.
Do i really looked different from my pictures?
Naah, i don't think so.
I am still the chubby, fat girl!!! Hahaha...
Feeling happy to meet with someone that i haven't seen before.
Plus, he is my senior.
If anything i don't know, may be i can refer to him also.
Hehehe......
Really feel happy for him!!!
He has graduated.
I am so jealous.
I still have 3 years more to achieve that level.
How suffered will i be in these few years???
Haiz.....
Jealous, i am so jealous!!!!
Anyway, i still want to congratulate him for his succeed.
Congratulations!

A dai, cook for me, please!

2008-03-13T22:25:00.004+08:00

Cooking porridge in the college...
With a rice cooker.
Of cause, with a chef ~ A dai
If she sees this post, she will be like crazy!
I bet she will immediately scream like hell...
Then, i will get scolded for 'putting her on the table'(if u translate to Cantonese, u will know what i mean!).
Anyway, i don't care.
I have been doing this since she knew me. (Feeling regret for knowing me? How DARE you???)
Haha...
Love to eat the chicken porridge with mushroom cooked by a dai!
Love to see the way she cooked!
Like a real chef!
Haha...

Loving myself

2008-03-11T10:53:00.003+08:00

Time passes by.
About six months later, i will be a real adult.
Able to be involved in the national election.
Able to drink......(Haha, you know what i mean, don't you?)
Able to go out late at night.
Able to gamble.(Though i have gambled before, but that one is considered illegal mar...)
Able to do lots of things...
I am going to do what i wished to do but not permitted to before this.
Hahaha...
Of cause, i won't do something that can ruin my life.
I still love myself very much!!

BaD dAy

2008-03-05T13:25:00.005+08:00

Today is the worst day in my life.
A day with hundreds of mistakes.
A day with thousands of errors.
A day that makes me heart-broken.
I am not sure what had made my life so terrible today.
I just know that, today is not my day.
And i am 100% confirm with this.
Making 2 major errors that cannot be forgiven.
I paid off.
I don't want to be with my friends.
I am afraid that their emotions will be affected by me.
I am sad, but i want they all be happy.
When they look at me, they will be worried for me.
For sure.
That's why i am trying to hiding myself.
Avoiding to be seen.
You might say "You stupid! What for hiding yourself? It can't help!"
I agree, to the first part.
I am stupid.
Nevertheless,
i still think that by hiding myself,
at least others won't be affected by my negative emotions.
I care for my friends.
And i know, so do they.
I don't want them to worry for me.
I choose to run away.
It is better,
for you,
for me,
when you can't find me.
I mean it.

GrEAt nEws FRom eNGLanD...

2008-03-04T10:09:00.005+08:00

Two days ago, i received a happy news from my cousin sister.
She told me that she is pregnant, and she would be going back to Ipoh around May or June. (if i have not mistaken)
Can't wait to see her...
Really!!
Excited with this news!!!
Though she may not seen this post, i still want to congratulate her.
Congratulations, Yen Ling!!!
Congratulations, Mr. Tang!!!
To my 'will-be-nephew or niece',
Can't wait to see you!!!

Frus...being asked...

2008-03-02T09:52:00.004+08:00

Friends are going back to their hometowns this week.
For election?
For family?
For entertainment?
For???
I don't know.
The thing i know is,
i will be alone for around 3 days.

Never mind.
I have my plan.
I won't be bored!
I am sure about that.

People have been asking me why am i staying here for nothing.
And i am too frustrated to answer them.
I am not angry with them but i just hate to explain.
Why on hell must i tell everyone the purpose of staying back here?
I am who I am.
I just hate to EXPLAIN!!!!!

Miserable

2008-02-21T14:03:00.005+08:00

Life is so miserable for me...
Everything seems unclear.
Exams, assignments, club activities and so on...
Today, i suppose to go out for an interview session with a company in Jitra.
However, due to some factors, the journey has been cancelled.
Lots of books to be studied.
Lots of paperwork is waiting for me to be settled.
Lots of non-academic work is on.
Tired...
Mentally, so as phsycally.
More effort is being put inside, my health is going to be jeorpadised.

sURreNDeR

2008-02-18T12:57:00.004+08:00

What am i suppose to do to make myself happier?

I just finished with my 1st mid-semester test~Entrepreneurial Skills and Behavior

I know that i have ruined this paper.

I know.

I didn't know that my life can be so miserable now.

What will happen to me in future?

I really don't want to think about it.

Yet, it is chasing behind me.

I have lost all my energy...

I have lost all my power...

I am going to surrender.

Surrender for my life...

Surrender for my future...

I still don't know what's wrong with me

2008-02-14T01:28:00.002+08:00

It is still in Chinese New Year, but everybody has already been preparing for this coming mid-semester exam. Everyone in UUM is busy studying for the mid-semester exam.

Those who have exam in this week are damn busy with their revision. How about those whose exams are in the following week? Well, rather the same. If they are not doing their revision, they must be rushing for the assignments and also presentations, for sure. However, I must admit that I am the odd one among them. I am going back to Ipoh tomorrow regardless of the compiling stack of coursework. For me, the passion for celebrating ‘Bai Tian Gong’ has overtaken the motivation to do my coursework. Rather sad for my lecturers, right?

Since the day I got into UUM, I have never thought of skipping any of my lectures. Yet, I am going to skip my SDG class for the sake of my enjoyment. Terrible, really terrible!!

Many friends have been asking me, “Y r u going back?”

Well, I keep answering them the same answer. “I wanna celebrate Valentine’s!”

That’s it!! I don’t want to explain more.

“What’s the point of going back tomorrow and coming back on the next day?” a friend asked me. Yes, what is the point of going back for just 1 day?

Good and challenging question! I don’t have any idea of what I am going to do tomorrow. So blur… How come I have such a thought of going back for just a short moment? Well, the answer is ‘UNKNOWN’. Even me myself don’t know the answer of this question.

GB=Going Back

2008-02-09T15:07:00.001+08:00

Today is the 3rd day of Chinese New Year.
I will be back to UUM tomorrow.
Don't feel like want to go back.
Plus, my dad is at home.
I wish to spend more time with my family, especially with my dad.
It is very hard to see him since he is working far far away from our hometown.
Really will be missing my dad a lot......

GONG XI FAT CAI~yEaR oF THE rAT

2008-02-06T20:44:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!
Halo, fellow friends.
Around 3 hours later, it will be a totally new year (according to the Chinese Calendar).
Year of the Rat!
Cool!
I am enjoying every moment from now on, waiting patiently to wish everyone a happy new year.
So so so...excited right now, and i don't know what to do now.
Really become crazy already. Crazy for Chinese New Year!!!
Gong Xi Fat Cai!!!!!

Happy CNY? Sad CNY? Busy CNY?

2008-02-01T19:38:00.001+08:00

I think i am going to be crazy during this Chinese New Year.
No mood, no time, no money, no guts....to do something i wish to do but i can't do.
I can't enjoy my Chinese New Year.
Lots of assignment to do!
Lots of book to be read!
Lots of things to be done!!!
My life seems doesn't belong to me anymore.
I have lost the control power.
I have lost myself.
True, i lost the part inside of me, my soul...
Physically, i am considered alright.
Mentally, i am totally lost.
There is so much to be done. Yet, i don't know what should i do.
My 2008 new year wish is to find myself.
But look, what happen to me???
I can feel my changes, i can't find myself!
What's going on???
Changes might be good for me, yet i don't know whether should i be happy with all these changes.

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-01-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

I have just come back from UUM, Sintok, Kedah.
Very tired!
After a four-hour bus journey, i am totally exhausted.
Anyway, Chinese New Year is around the corner...I am so excited to celebrate Chinese New Year.
Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!!!

Bye 2007!

2008-01-01T14:13:00.001+08:00

Wow, it has come to year 2008.
Feeling so excited...
Excited to go back for school, for friends, for my knowledge.

2007 has gone.
Yet, the memories still in my mind.

I remember the day when i first saw Yen Ni and Pei San.
I remember the day i ask Yoong Pei about our course (we are taking the same course)
I remember the the day i got to know Lai Theng, Yoke Nee, and Soo Ling.
I remember Kwan Ning, Eling, Wai Yan, Pei San, Yen Ni, Lai Theng, Yoke Nee, Yoong Pei, Soo Ling, and Pei Shan were trying to surprise me on my birthday eve.
I remember when my bed sheet was conquered by a swarm of bees, then Yoong Pei, Pei San and Yen Ni helped me to 'fight' with them.
I remember the day when Eling, Pei San, Yen Ni and i were wearing baju kurung and walked to Dewan TSO for our first paper.
The memories can't be deleted from my heart.
No matter what happen, it stays there.
And it definitely will stay in my mind forever.
Very precious for me!

SicK AgaIN...sAD

2007-12-17T15:19:00.002+08:00

I am sick again!!!
I just hate myself for being so weak. Since i was born, i always get sick.
Sore throat, fever, cough, flu...'they' are always so 'closed' to me!
I don't know why, but 'they' just love to stick with me. I couldn't do anything except letting 'them' to torture me.
Why are 'they' coming to me again?
I hate 'them' so much!!!!
Damn fever, damn sore throat! Leave me alone!!!!

Life in Ipoh is so boring!!! (Terrible! Now i am talking bad about my hometown.)
This is my daily routine! (Give some comments, please!)
1.Fetch my mom to my grandma's house.
2.Meet out with friends.
3.Window shopping with friends.
4.Fetch my mom back home.
5.Eat and sleep.
My life seems so meaningless!
May be you will suggest me to go online.But too bad, i can't always go to CC to online. (I am almost broke!!) (Well, you can call me big spender.)

My 1st semester result is not yet out!
But why am i so nervous whenever i think about it??
May be i am just like the Singaporean, having the same personality ~ 'kiasu' or 'kiasi' style of thinking. I afraid that i couldn't get good results for this semester, then it will be harder for me to get better results in the remaining semesters. Consequently, i will not coming out as a 'first-class grad'.
How sad will i be?!

Huh?
Why do i still have the energy to think all these things?
I am already too tired for this!
I just couldn't understand ?!! Haiz..

Distance & Love

2007-12-15T13:49:00.001+08:00

One of my friend broke up with her boyfriend already!!!
I don't really know the reason they broke up, but i guess 'distance' is main reason.
Many couples had broken up because of this reason.
I guess she is in the same case!
What to do to let her feel better? As her friend, i feel that i should do something.
But what can i do?
Nothing can be done by me to make her feel better. Too bad!
All that i can do now is standing beside her, give her support!

Actually i just don't understand why most of the people can't make it through when it comes to distance.
Is it that when you are far far away from your love one, all your love will disappear?
Then, what is love?
I always think that love is above all. Seems that i was wrong!
Love is just a tiny little thing.
When you don't see it, you can't feel it!
Then you will lose it! What is love???

To MY FRIEND,

You will always be supported by us!!!
Remember that no matter what happens, you can always count on us!
True friends are standing beside you!
'Ga Yao!'

FAt? faT? FaT? Do i looked.......

2007-12-14T20:47:00.001+08:00

Do i looked slimmer????
HAHA.....
I don't think so...
Why do people think that i am slimmer?
Do i really looked slimmer?
I really had looked slimmer than i am before.
Yes.
But now, i have become more and more fat.....
I hate to become fat!!!!!
Do you know what is the feeling being called fat girl?
It actually hurts!
What to do?
U just can't do anything...( Anybody has the same feeling??)
If i don't come back to Ipoh, may be i won't become this fat.
I think.
Anyway, since that i have back to Ipoh, i think i have to adjust my lifestyle.
EAT MORE, SLEEP MORE, BECOME PIG!!!
Hahaha....

Happy.....

2007-12-10T21:50:00.001+08:00

I really miss my FRIENDS IN UUM.
I miss a dai, a san, a po , a yi(nee) & a yi(ling).....
I really miss them.
Hope to see them soon......

Tired, sleepy, exhausted...
Back from the St. John Training camp!
Feeling blessed...
They are a group of people who are responsible and capable in doing everything.
At least this is what i have observed in this few days being with them.
They are really GOOD.

AMC St. John girls are the best!!!!!!!!

Doing this in mid-night

2007-11-25T02:26:00.001+08:00

I am in love with surfing the Internet in the middle of the night.
Really in the middle of the night...
Though i may get flu, mosquito bites or frozen, i am still enjoying being actively in the middle of the night.
Just now, i even asked my roommate~PEI SAN aka. A Dai to wake me up, just to online. Terrible, right? I mean my 'sickness'! Haha......

What to do?
The feel of doing this in the middle of the night is extremely good except that the 'fierce' mosquitoes......Haha.....
What to do? I just love doing it!

There is another benefit of doing this in the middle of the night. Usually, i will be refreshed after surfing the Internet. Hehe, feeling best when i have exam tomorrow. It gives me more energy to study!

Well, you may think i am insane. Yet, i am enjoying it.

2007-11-24T15:16:00.001+08:00

Haha.....
Feeling excited to join my cousin's wedding.......
I will be back to Ipoh on 1st of December. I will have to attend her wedding dinner immediately when i am back.
Nervous......
I have bought a new dress for this dinner. (I have never wear this kind of attire to a dinner before.) I feel very nervous since i rarely wear skirt. And this one is definitely a SKIRT......
PLUS, i will be wearing a high-heel for that dinner.
How am i going to walk like a lady?
PAISEH......
I am so...................................nervous!
Skirt + High-heel = Problem
(I mean for me as a person who has never wear this kind of attire before.)
Hopefully i may get through this 'safely'. Then, i will be on top of the world!!!!!
Wahaha......

EAT PORK

2007-11-23T16:24:00.001+08:00

I went out for dinner at Changlun last night. I enjoyed my dinner very much since i got to eat pork last night. (Haha... I miss pork very much....)

I managed to eat 'ku lou yuk' last night... But the thing is, the 'ku lou yuk' in Changlun is not like the one i always eat in Ipoh. Instead of the tomato sauce that we used to eat in Ipoh, this one is 'black' color. Different places using the same name for a different food. If i don't go out to eat outside, i think i won't know this thing forever. How 'palia' i am? (If you don't know what is palia, ask your 'Hokkien' friends!) Haha..

UUM students, always go out to Changlun for food. This is a reality!!!

One subject left

2007-11-22T11:44:00.001+08:00

I just finished my second last subject yesterday.
TIRED.........
However, my mood turned better after yesterday's paper.
I am satisfied with my performance on that paper.
Hopefully i can get good results for this paper.

Now i have only 1 subject left.
I have to do my best to get good results for this subject.
I will just concentrate on my studies and do my best.

Wish me luck!

Don't post comment for this post

2007-11-20T13:27:00.001+08:00

I just finished my account exam.
All is over!
Nothing can be changed now.
There is one thing that can be changed-------my thought
May be i should be happy ....
Since it has over.
Yet, i can't do it.
I am sad.
I am damn sad.
I don't believe that i couldn't finish my paper.
I just couldn't believe this.
Why is this happening?
I am sure that i knew how to do the questions. (Should i feel happy?)
Yet, i got no time to finish them all. (I am angry with myself!)
I didn't manage my time properly, i know.
What to do?
Now i can't change anything.
Regret!!!!!

To anybody who see this post:

Please don't post any comment to me!
Please don't ask me why!
Just don't do it!
You can look at it!
You can even scold me!
But please don't write comment for me!
Thanks......

Don't read this!

2007-11-19T15:01:00.001+08:00

This is no good.
I am too stressed in this few days.
I am exhausted!
I am totally out of energy.
I feel so tired.
I just don't have the mood to study!
No one can help me, i think.
No one........
I need nobody.
I am not sure.........
I have been asking people's help all this while, especially after i got into university.
Why am i so useless?
I thought i am good, but may be i have overlooked at myself.
I am not good enough to be considered as good.

DON'T GIVE UP

2007-11-18T11:52:00.001+08:00

Recently, i have been busy with my exam. Two days later, i will have to face with MANAGERIAL ACCOUNTING. (a subject which scares me a lot) That why i am busy doing a lot of exercises. Accounting is not a difficult subject, but it is a subject which requires a lot of practices. Me, as a person who has never had a basic in this accounting field, will have to work harder than the others to get a good results in this subject. Hopefully, with my hard work, i may at least get an A- in this subject. (A- is good but A is the best.....HAHA)

After managerial accounting, i will have another 2 subject waiting for me ( basics of entrepreneurship & social science). Basics of entrepreneurship is on the 21th of Nov which is the day after my managerial accounting. I am quite worried since i feel that i won't have enough time to study it thoroughly. SWEAT, MAN! Anyway, i just want to release my tension through blogging. Life still goes on.
'Ga Yao!!!!!!!!!' DON'T GIVE UP!

Sad n sorrow.....

2007-11-15T19:13:00.001+08:00

I have no idea what is happening to me!!!!!

I just received a bad news last night. (May be for others, this is no big deal. However, it means a lot to me.) All of the old students are involved in the TRANSITION which will be implemented next year. I just don't understand why are they changing and changing. Just a week before, they announced that all the old students are excluded for this program, but now they say a different thing. Which one is true???? Which one should we follow???

I am a sensitive person. When i have been very closed to someone, i just hate to be apart. A bond is strong, yet it is breakable. The relationship of two person may be diminished due to this happening. Who is responsible for that?

May be i should ask myself to set a distance for my friends. Just stay behind the border line! Then, if anything happens, i won't be this 'HURT'.

Please come back!

2007-11-14T22:58:00.001+08:00

I don't like to be what i am now!! I am so so so......LAZY!
Lazy to study!
Lazy to do anything!
I completely lost my passion!

Where is the YENG YENG who is energetic????
Where is she?????????????

Please come back, my passion!
I need you!!!!!!!!
PLEASE.....................

Yeah! Yeah! I finished my maths....

2007-11-13T19:57:00.001+08:00

Today. i went for my QQM exam. I managed to finish it 1 hour earlier than the given time. I was quite shocked as i was leaving at that time because there were lots of people still busy doing their papers. I was feeling like a bit weird.....

Last night, i slept around 6:30am (or should i say is was in this morning? Haha..) I just couldn't sleep last night due to some 'mental' problem. I was too excited to sleep last night. Eventually, i slept at 6:30am and woke up at 7:35am. When i was sleeping last night, i kept dreaming about my maths formulas. I scared that what i had memorised suddenly went off, then i would surely be dead. Haha....

This is so called 'siao lang'. Haha...
( If you know Hokkien, you know what i mean.)

Sweat.....

2007-11-12T23:01:00.001+08:00

I will be taking my managerial maths in about 10 hours. So nervous!!
I think i will be having insomnia tonight.
I still have lots of books to be studied.
I still have 4 subjects more after tomorrow's exam. I just don't know how am i going to finish studying all of them.
SWEAT!!!!!!!!!

Frustrated

2007-11-11T16:37:00.001+08:00

My mood to study lost again......
I have lots and lots of books to be studied. However. i just don't have the mood or energy to study.
WHO CAN HELP ME???????

I still have 5 subjects in my final exam. Managerial Maths, Priciples of Economy, Managerial of Accounting, Basics of Entrepreneurship and Social Science. I just don't have enough time to study each of them thoroughly. Now i have just finish studied my managerial maths, and a few chapthers in the principles of economy. I just don't understand why am i so lazy!!!!! It makes me really frustrated.....

LIfe is like this!

2007-11-10T12:25:00.001+08:00

Nothing is impossible!

I was told that students of my semester (Semester 1 student) are required to move to other colleges in a different area. Since our university is implementing what so called TRANSITION. It is an implementation of changing of 15 faculties into 3 colleges. Under this implementation, students of different faculties will be grouped into 3 main colleges. According to the authorities, this implementation is to help students to know and learn more of their courses. Since people of the same course will be grouped together in one college,students are easier to meet with with their course mates. It is true that we will find easier to meet with our course mates for discussion and doing assignment. Nevertheless, by doing this, we will not able to learn more things. Taking me as an example. I am taking BA of Entrepreneurship but a few of my seniors are taking Management of Technology, Multimedia Technology and more. I can always ask them things that are not in my course. I really learn different things from them.

Learning is not just learning one particular thing, but it is all. We as human being are not able to know all the things in this world. But no matter what, we are still able to learn as much as we can. This is LIFE.....

Thanks!

2007-11-09T23:38:00.001+08:00

I feel relieved now since i know that my father's leg is not that serious. He will be fine if he follows what doctor has said. I can really concentrate on my studies now!

I nearly cried last night thinking about him. I really worry about him until i couldn't study. Luckily i have my seniors beside me. Although they couldn't help me, they still able to make me feel better. I am blessed to have them.

I think i just owe them a THANKS.

To my seniors (you know who you are):

Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!

Water crisis is over!!!

2007-11-08T16:16:00.001+08:00

Happy......

I feel happier today because my college has water again!
The feeling when touching the water is so.............NICE!
During this few days, i experienced a new challenge ~ WATER CRISIS
Due to this water crisis, i learn that the importance of water ( although i had been writing essays of 'the importance of water' ). This time, i really get the 'essence'.
No water, no bathing!
No water, no drinking!
No water, no eating!
No water, people sure will die!!!!!

PEOPLE WHO VIEW MY BLOG, PLEASE APPRECIATE EVERY DROP OF THE WATER YOU ARE USING!!!

Asking to myself; Answering to myself

2007-11-07T15:22:00.001+08:00

Here i am. I am talking to myself!!!!!!

Dear Yeng Yeng,

How are you today?
Are you happy today?
Anything that makes you feel unhappy?
What is your energy level?

Dear Yeng Yeng,

I am replying to what you have asked just now.
I am fine today.
I am not that happy today.
My college has no water due to some pipe construction at Jitra.
My energy level has increase from yesterday's 0% to today's 10%.

I am still not feeling good.
I am worry for my father. He hurt his leg during work.
Hope that he can fully recover as soon as possible.

Hopefully.............

Never give up! Life is beautiful!

2007-11-06T13:52:00.001+08:00

Lately,i have been facing with lots of tension. I have just taken the first subject for my final exam yesterday. The subject that scares me the most - TAMADUN ISLAM DAN TAMADUN ASIA.

Actually, i don't understand the purpose for us taking this subject. I personally think that it is weird for us - the Non-Muslim, to learn this subject. I know that many have the same feeling too. But no matter how we dislike it, we are forced to accept the truth that we need to read it!

Well, all this is over!!!!!!!

What i have to do now is just get myself be prepared for the coming papers. When i have the heart to do it, i strongly feel that it will become a success. Now i just pray that i am still able to keep my 'fire' of studying.

Anything is possible for me, as long as i have the heart to do it. And now, i have the heart!!!

Good luck to me!!!!!!!!! Never ever give up!!!!!!!

GoGo Nicki!!!!!!!!